This Blog is About to Get A LOT More Exciting!

WE'RE PREGNANT!!
We are pretty dang excited. Even though we know this is going to change our lives forever, we are ready and this is what we want. We are grateful to know of Heavenly Father's plan and the importance of families. We are so happy to be starting one of our own with this little addition that is coming.
We found out at the beginning of November. I took a pregnancy test while Rob was at Young Men's. I was pretty stunned when it was positive. Even though this was something we were hoping for and planning on, I immediately realized that there was no backing out now, and I started to freak out. I didn't know if I was ready to give up everything of myself and be a mom. I didn't know if I was ready to give up the fun and comfortable life that Rob and I had as just the two of us. That sounds pretty selfish, but I really wondered if I was going to be the same person once I was a mom, or if I was going to be giving up a lot of what that person is all about as my life became learning about and caring for children (because now that there is going to be one, there will be more). I really didn't know to feel and I sat in the bathroom until I heard Rob come home. I went out and stood in the hall. I just stared at him and his eyes got all big. "What?!" he said, and I rushed him into the bedroom (my brother and his family were living with us at the time). I showed him the test and he was just laughing. He was pretty happy and I tried to be happy too, but he could tell something was on my mind. I told him what I was thinking about, that I was going to lose my identity, and he did his best to comfort me. But that night I didn't sleep at all. I was thinking all night.
We made an appointment with my doctor, but it wasn't for about a month, so Rob and I were just in our own little world about it for a few days. . . Until it was revealed that our house guests had the swine flu. I fled the house like a mad woman because swine flu is really bad for pregnant women. Rob fled with me and we went to my parents house. Because of our strange behavior, we told my parents and my brother and his wife about it. Because I was so disturbed about the flu I wasn't really anticipating their reactions, but my mom was so excited! And my brother and his wife were too. It was really fun to have that kind of emotion come from them. I started to get more and more used to the idea over the next week or so and I got so happy and excited. Now it is just pure fun and we are so happy!
We moved back to our house a week and a half later and everything was fine. We just had to keep our mouths shut at work and church. That is the hard part. I started to feel a bit icky right before Thanksgiving, and then I got a cold. It wasn't very fun. But I got past the cold, and the ickiness was the worst at night, so at least I could get up and go in the mornings. By the time I felt the worst I just curled up and went to bed.
The tiredness was (and is) still pretty overwhelming. I can't believe how tired I am, and I'm not even doing anything, or at least I don't feel like I am, but I know my body is working hard. It is so fun to read up on everything and just try to enjoy it all.
We heard the heartbeat the week before Christmas. That was a pretty special moment. Rob comes with me to all the appointments and he was pretty excited to hear the heartbeat. It was the first real evidence to him that there really is a baby growing inside of me.
We told all of Rob's family on Christmas Eve when everyone was together, all 22 of us. It was so fun! They all screamed and I have got to say that is easily becoming one of my favorite things about this, seeing everyone's reactions. Telling Rob's friends and my friends and everyone at work has been really fun the last couple of weeks.
It truly is a blessing and a miracle and we feel so blessed and happy. It just keeps getting better and better. I feel better now, not completely over the ickiness but getting there, and I just keep thinking the next 6 months are just going to go so fast.
It is crazy how much life is going to change. I will be doing more posts now, updating everyone on the status, so I hope that will make the few followers of this blog happy.
I love my life. I have been so abundantly blessed throughout my life and I know this is just another huge blessing and that this, me and Rob being sealed in the temple and starting a family, is what life is all about.