see i already messed up. . .

That last post was supposed to be this post really. I just didn't know that pressing "enter" would publish my post before I had written anything. Oops.
Okay, so what kind of things do you write on a blog? I see people just spilling their thoughts out on their blogs, anything that comes to mind, they put it out there... Well, I am opinionated, I have lots to say, but I have never thought of just flinging my thoughts out so everyone can read them. It lacks the conversation element and the discussion element that I thrive on. That one on one-ness that I thought life was all about.
Anyway, I will practice this spewage of thoughts, and then I will tell our family about our blog. Hopefully after practicing for a while, what I say might actually be interesting to others to read.
Today I woke up 6ish, like I always do. We just got new black-out drapes for our room so getting up is harder now. I never realized how much those blaring park lights help me throw the covers back. Anyway, then I have my usual 45 minutes or so in the bathroom. I must admit, this is a good part of my day. Everything is warm, everything is quiet. I think about my day, what I have planned, what I want to accomplish. As I dry my hair and put on my make-up I think about dreams I may have had, or really good memories I have. And I never look as good at any point in any day as right after I have gotten ready. Hair looks good, face looks good. That all fades with the busyness of the day it seems.
Next is another favorite part of the day. I go into the bedroom to get dressed, the dark bedroom where my husband is still slumbering. He groans and shifts under the covers as I turn the corner light on. I try to be quiet, lots of times he admits to not ever knowing I am in there, but he is so cute, sleeping there, it makes me smile.
Down the stairs to eat breakfast and out the door to work. Another good part of the day: being at work before anyone else is there. I LOVE that. I start the day on my terms, working on what I need to work on without any interruptions. I really think that it helps the rest of the day go smoother. I can plan and prioritize and get to work.
My days just fly by. I am constantly so busy at work that before I know it, it is lunch time. And then after lunch I only have a few more hours to work and I have so much to do.... Wow, yep days fly by. I can't believe I ever thought a day was a long time. But even though I am constantly crazy busy, I always take a lunch and I always leave when 8 hours of working are up. It is how I stay sane. I have never intended work to be my life, even though I love my job. Life is about so much more and lunches (especially with Rob) and leaving work help me remember what life is about and keep my priorities straight. Hey, I am paid to work 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. That is what I do. And I do it well. I am not going to lie. I am great at my job. And I want to be great at my life too. I have so much I want to do, try, read, see, etc. Anyway, I don't think I am articulating this thought very well...So I will move on.
I will move on to why I don't articulate well on blogs. I need the instant feedback of conversation to help me articulate. I need to just ramble off and give examples and look into people's eyes to feel like I am getting my point across.
So I am sitting here at the end of a good day, Rob is in the other room. And I realize that we are what so many other couples in this day in age are, two separate people at two separate computers doing separate technological things.
Okay, I am getting off right now. Too much practice. I know that someday I will love this. I know that blogging has so many good things about it.
Just give me time.